HALLELUJAH!!!

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This is what the Lord says, “Heaven is My throne and the earth is My footstool. Where, then, is a house that you could build for Me? And where will My resting place be? “For all these things My hand has made, So all these things came into being [by and for Me],” declares the Lord . “But to this one I will look [graciously], To him who is humble and contrite in spirit, and who [reverently] trembles at My word and honors My commands.
ISAIAH 66 AMP
http://bible.com/1588/isa.66.1-2.AMP

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With God

The emotional and cognitive noise has been very loud for the past 2 or more days but having emerged from some “alone time with God”, I am in a much better place.

More than anything, I am experiencing His nearness.

Lord, I’ve been angry

I’ve been angry Lord,

Angry.

Angry because You haven’t done things my way…

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Angry.

Angry because You aren’t what I’ve thought you should be…

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Angry Lord, angry…

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and, I’m sorry…

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sorry if I displeased You

sorry, if in my anger, I have sinned.

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I quit.

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I’m tired of chasing feelings

Spirit, lead me.

I’m pliable in Your hands Lord,

I only want You.

 

 

 

A Flash Back to Zen’s Passing

Written for the most part on March 26, 2017 (the day following his death)

I saw a rainbow yesterday…

It reminded me of God’s faithfulness and I was again filled with His peace that truly surpasses all understanding.

I had gone to bed the night before with the proverbial heavy heart. I had cried and questioned; I needed a Word from God and I needed it fast. Zen was unwell and had been for quite some time, slowing down with each passing day. His doctor had said that any medical procedure towards attempting to diagnose his health challenges, at his age, would be very stressful for him.

He had now spent the last two or more days at the veterinary clinic as he was now too weak to be cared for at home.

I opened my Bible to John 14, simply because I was catching up on my New Testament reading; my church family and I are on a mission to read it in its entirety over the course of this year. The chapter begun with the title “Jesus Comforts His Disciples”.

It reminded me of the situation surrounding Zen’s being ill and I definitely needed to be comforted, as the possibility of having to have him put down in a few hours was now looming.

On the way home from the clinic, having held him as he passed on, I saw the rainbow…

The Bible says in Genesis 9:8-16 that the Lord set His bow in the cloud as token of a covenant between Him and His people and every living creature of all flesh that is upon the earth.

Genesis 9:8-17 New Living Translation (NLT)(Look up)

Then God told Noah and his sons, “I hereby confirm my covenant with you and your descendants, 10 and with all the animals that were on the boat with you—the birds, the livestock, and all the wild animals—every living creature on earth. 11 Yes, I am confirming my covenant with you. Never again will floodwaters kill all living creatures; never again will a flood destroy the earth.”

12 Then God said, “I am giving you a sign of my covenant with you and with all living creatures, for all generations to come. 13 I have placed my rainbow in the clouds. It is the sign of my covenant with you and with all the earth. 14 When I send clouds over the earth, the rainbow will appear in the clouds, 15 and I will remember my covenant with you and with all living creatures. Never again will the floodwaters destroy all life. 16 When I see the rainbow in the clouds, I will remember the eternal covenant between God and every living creature on earth.” 17 Then God said to Noah, “Yes, this rainbow is the sign of the covenant I am confirming with all the creatures on earth.”

 

For me, a rainbow is a symbol of God’s faithfulness to keep His promises. That day, I believe, He was reminding me that He remains faithful, even in my grief.

Thanks God, for the blessing of having had an awesome dog and faithful friend for 13 whole years and for the support of family who was committed to helping me provide and care for him.

🙂